I'm still here, and I miss this blog so much.

Tak tau nak start cerita apa. Too many things to tell. To little time.

Padahal bukan aku kerja pun. Dah full time housewife. But daily, penuh dgn activities. Sampai malam, I would be so exhausted.

We have  moved to Shah Alam. Technically dah tidur sini since last Sunday. But brg2 masih banyak kat Melawati. Daily, we would go back there (Melawati), pack, kemas and patah balik Shah Alam.

Kat Melawati, kena pack and kemas.

Balik Shah Alam, kena unpack and kemas.


Ni pun banyak tak ber pack-unpack-kemas.


Tired? Tak payah nak cerita. Dgn aku skarang down with flu, sakit tekak and cough. Malam2, asthma attack makin teruk sampai tak boleh tidur.

But housewife mana ada MC. :)


And, lately emosi aku tak stabil semacam. No, I am not pregnant. I wish  aku pregnant tho, so that I would have a reason on the mood swing.

Tapi I dont have any.


Sometimes I cry alone in the bathroom. Sometimes tgh lipat baju aku nangis. Sometimes aku nak marah. Most of the times I just like to keep quiet and keep my thoughts to myself.


Someone once told me. Bila dah jadi housewife ni, there are times yang we don't even know our self. I didn't understand her that time.

Now, I totally get her lah.

No, aku bukan regret my decision. Nothing like that.


Cuma aku anggap whatever that we decide, mesti ada pros and cons, mesti ada cabaran.


There are times that I feel so lonely. There are times yang aku rasa depressed sangat. Ada masa yang everything ok je but I just feel like crying.

Mood swing like crazy that I almost went to the pharmacy and buy pregnancy test kit. Haha.


Last time I update this blog was like a week ago. Gila lama tak bukak blog. Baca blog orang pun tak dek. Asal nak bukak henfon baca blog je mesti bateri habis. :(


Rindu nak bercerita like I used to.


Well I guess benda ni takes time to adapt. Just gotta hang on tight.


Yang best ada blog ni, I can revisit my old post and remind myself why did I do this and that. Jadi kenangan. Jadi pengajaran. Jadi tempat luahan hati.

Keluar rumah pun aku kekdg malas mekap. Lantak lah. 

I miss my friends lah. Sometimes I feel I am slowly detaching myself from you all. Bukan sengaja. Sometimes apa yg orang dok borak aku tak leh masuk. Other times maybe I am too busy doing I dono what.


Ni dah pukul 1 pagi. Esok konfem kepala aku ting tong. Tapi tak kira aku nak jugak merepek kat  blog.

Ni view from rumah baru aku. Hazy sikit. Tapi actually boleh nampak Masjid Shah Alam. Azan pun boleh dengar (from nearby surau lah.. bukan from the masjid).


Nanti cerita detail on pindah and rumah baru later la ye.. sebelum kepala aku lebih ting tong baik la kita masuk tidur.


Bye.