Food food food

i think my subsequent entries will be revolving around food..


seriously aku tatau pasaipa kebuloq sgt aku lately. as compared to couple mths ago where aku tak lalu nak makan sampai berat aku turun.


lunch, kalau nasik mesti dgn ayam 2 ketul..muhahahah.. akak cashier tu pun tergezut sambil tanya "ayam 2 eh dik?" petang aku wajib turun and beli biskut or roti nak makan lagik. then dinner, then supper.


semlm during lunch i bought sup tulang and kopok lekor singgit. naik ofis aku makan kopok lekor dulu. sedap btul... habis 4 ketul.. rasa cam tak puas. membuak2 keinginan nak beli lagik, tapi aku tahan kan jer nafsu sbb memikirkan sup pun belum makan. kot2 la lepas makan sup ni kenyang sket kan...


habis sup.. mak oiii.. still tak kenyang.. or rather tak puas, sbb still terbayang2 kopok lekor tuh.. so aku pun turun ler jugak again.. gi beli kopok lekor. makcik tu pun cakap "tadi kan udah beli??" cetttt... sib baik tak de org tauuu...


aku pun dgn muka tak malu.. "teringin lagi lah..."


makcik tu pun sambung bebel.. "seringgit mana cukup.. beli lah 5 ringgit ke..."

aku pun cakap "tak per la singgit cukup.. dah makan dah tadi"

pas tu dia kata "nah ambik la lagi satu free"


yeayyy!!


tak sia2 aku turun 2 kali.. dpt gak kopok leko seketul free.. timasey ye makcik!


hmmm.. agak2 kalau esok aku beli lagi dpt lagi dah free eh? kuikuikui..


-aku yg tak sabar tapi takut nak beranak-

Happy Father’s Day!

Ini first time Mr Photographer celebrate Father’s Day, well.. officially. Sbb last year, even tho blum kawin, Balqis still kasik the card and gift that she made at school to him. How sweet…..

Friday lepas we came back from work a bit late, singgah sana sini. By the time sampai rumah almost maghrib. Bukak jer pintu aku dgr Balqis menjerit kelam kabut… rupa2 nya ada surprise nak kasik kat daddynyer.. hehhehe (even tho FD on the 15th, kita kasik card and gift awal la ni)

Sunday lepas plak Mr Photographer bawak dia naik motor gi Jusco, main kat PlayLand tu sepuas2 hati. Sempat la mummy melayan satu movie dok sorang kat rumah.. hehhehehe

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My appetite has increased SIGNIFICANTLY. Aku rasa by checkup this Friday ada yg naik 5 kilo karang…

Lately teringin sgt2 makan benda2 yg ada byk cheese. Kalau mcD ada triple cheesburger lagik bagus. Cam semlm aku goreng hashbrown, then tempek cheese atas dia.. fuhhh.. sedap I tell u… lagik sedap bila makan tu late nite cam kol 10 pm muehheheheh

Lagik 3 minggu.. kasik chan aku mentekedarah kay….

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Finally... a few pics yg dah download and edited by Mr Photographer.. ni masa birthday party Balqis kat sekolah and her sports day.. more pics coming soon.

Happy Father’s Day!

Ini first time Mr Photographer celebrate Father’s Day, well.. officially. Sbb last year, even tho blum kawin, Balqis still kasik the card and gift that she made at school to him. How sweet…..

Friday lepas we came back from work a bit late, singgah sana sini. By the time sampai rumah almost maghrib. Bukak jer pintu aku dgr Balqis menjerit kelam kabut… rupa2 nya ada surprise nak kasik kat daddynyer.. hehhehe (even tho FD on the 15th, kita kasik card and gift awal la ni)

Sunday lepas plak Mr Photographer bawak dia naik motor gi Jusco, main kat PlayLand tu sepuas2 hati. Sempat la mummy melayan satu movie dok sorang kat rumah.. hehhehehe

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My appetite has increased SIGNIFICANTLY. Aku rasa by checkup this Friday ada yg naik 5 kilo karang…

Lately teringin sgt2 makan benda2 yg ada byk cheese. Kalau mcD ada triple cheesburger lagik bagus. Cam semlm aku goreng hashbrown, then tempek cheese atas dia.. fuhhh.. sedap I tell u… lagik sedap bila makan tu late nite cam kol 10 pm muehheheheh

Lagik 3 minggu.. kasik chan aku mentekedarah kay….

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Finally... a few pics yg dah download and edited by Mr Photographer.. ni masa birthday party Balqis kat sekolah and her sports day.. more pics coming soon.

AI, bola.

Baru balik check up tadi. Alhamdulillah everything is okay. U see, I am grateful and thankful that I and baby are ok, but at the same time, aku nak nangis pasal ESOK DAH KENA KEJE!!!

HUWAAAAAAAAAAAAAA!!!

I have so enjoyed myself these 3 days. Rilek, makan, TV, rilek, masak, makan, TV, rilek. HEAVEN i tell u. Mr Photographer asked me, "you tak boring ke dok rumah mcm ni?"

NOPE!!! I am so super dee duper happy. Plus kalau tak sakit, bleh gi kuar mana2.. LAGIK la aku suka!

Okes back to reality now... sighhhh..

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Pagi tadi final champions league, i think its champions league.. yg UEFA tu eh? hihihih nampak sgt tak tau menahu pasal bola. Mr Photographer mmg minat bola, so lately aku pun terikut2 dok tgk match kat TV. Including la semlm punya. Punya lah bersorak sakan we all bila MU menang.. heheh.. sampai Balqis pun jaga and meraikan kemenangan team feveret daddy.. :)

Cayo lah MU... mmg power i tell u...

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Sapa tgk American Idol angkat tgn!!

I watched live pagi tadik... and by this time sumerang dah tahu yg David Cook menang. I likeeeeeee...

Dah la suara best.. ensem.. and ada star punya quality plak tuh.. and paling penting ada ciri2 lelaki idaman aku (which i oredi have :)) iaitu berjambang and janggut.. baru ler nampak cam ganas sket...

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Semlm dpt hadiah Teacher's Day frm my tuition student. Terharu beb. Dah ler lately aku selalu dok marah2 kat dia.. ala.. marah2 biasa lah.. for her own good jugak.

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Somebody kidnap me pls, aku tak mo pi keje...

Saya MC lagikkkk

-post ni penuh bahasa sopan santun becoz i'm blogging next to balqis, dia tak kasik guna bahasa kasar2 e.g. aku.. sekian terima kasih-

Friday lepas time bangun pagi I noticed ader bleeding sket, so cepat2 we went to Naluri for checkup. Doc Zana came in a rush, check2, tanya itu ini, then dia suruh naik atas. "Baby low ni, I'm giving u steroid injection, nak kembangkan paru2 baby. Just in case premature labour.. baby dah ready"

ooooookayyyyyyyyy

Didn't thought it was THAT serious... I mean.. tak de rasa apa2 pon? Nevertheless, kitorang naik atas, tunggu sat, then nurse masuk bagi injection. They pasang-ed CTG to monitor baby punya hearbeat and nak tgk if ada contraction.

After result kuar, few minutes later nurse came in. "Ada contraction sket ni... doctor suruh admit.. dah ready ke?"

Saya sungguh blur... wat do you mean dah ready? beranak?? of course I'm NOT!! brg baby pun belum beli byk weihhhhh....

Lalu saya pun bertanya "admit nak monitor je ke? bukan nak beranak kan?" dgn tersengih2 blur...

Nurse pun membalas sengih2 saya sambil berkata "tak lah.. nak suruh rest jer.."

oh ok then...

so duduklah saya dihospital selama 2 hari satu malam.... Masya Allah sungguh buhsan tahap gaban. Nak pergi jenguk nursery pun nurse tak kasik!!

Sabtu, lepas doc check, dia kasik balik, but kena rest sampai next checkup which is khamis 22 may. I asked "boleh gi mana2 tak? short2 journey" She said sambil sengih2 "nak gi mana? Jusco? jgn ngada2.. jgn sampai i jumpa u kat sana eh"

aiseyyyy....

so bertapa lah saya dirumah... mmg rest btul nieh... hantar - ambik balqis sekolah pun maid yg buat.

baru 32 weeks ni... obviously belum time for labour...

i blame it on stress keje and environment and boss. Example, I told her I was MC, admitted hospital, bos langsung tarak call, sms tanya kabar. so, jgn harap la saya nak pk or worry about keje yg belambak kat ofis tu kan?

Now, I'm happily resting at home with Balqis. She insisted nak update blog on her books, stationaries and the files she just brought home from school.

Below ni are her exact words..

Kaler pensil saya ada nama saya - ADRINA BALQIS. Kalau tidak ada nama nanti cikgu tak tahu ni siapa punya kaler pensel.

Saya punya page buku saya dah siap.

ini buku english saya, ABC, Apple, Book, Cat, Penguin.

Ini saya punya buku jugak, dah siap. ABC, yo yo, mouse, ciken, bear.

Ini buku wonderful letters.

Sekarang saya nak main Barbie Club dgn mama saya.

Good Bye

ye la ye la aku apdate

utk semua peminat2 ku.. (peminat? ptuiiiiiii)
keje aku byk sgt tahap gaban sampai otak ku jadi tepu.. so mari kita berapdate blog..

jap citer sampingan sat...

masa aku nak type 'so mari kita berapdate blog" tu kan.. tah mcm mana aku wrongly typed "makan" instead of "so"

huh??? apakah maksud itu? sgt jauh beza "makan" dgn "so"

adakah kerana..

1. aku tgh mengunyah sambil menaip..
2. nafsu makan aku mmg tahap gaban
3. or simply mmg aku associate everything dgn makan..

i think la kan.. mesti no 3.... ngengenge...

and btw...

2 hari lepas pi checkup... berat aku dah naik 10 kg.. berat baby estimated 1.6kg..
hmmmmmmm... sila buat simple matematik saudara saudari sekalian..
balance 8.4 kg tu ke mana agak2 nya ye?
ok lah maybe berat air, uri, dlm 2-3 kg...
so lagik5-6 kg tu mana pigi????

lagi mau komplen...

7.30 pagi ni aku makan cereal
10.30 aku makan egg sandwich
12 .15 aku makan nasik
1.15 tadi ni turun beli buah

habih camno?

tapi tak per.. as long as baby sihat.. kan baby kannnnn??? Doc Zana pun kata baby very healthy.. alhamdulillah...

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ok ok.. kita buat amy punya tag dulu... 15 pet peeves..

1. Org yg tak kenal, nampak sgt tak tahu nak borak apa.. but for the sake of bukak mulut, tanya aku “baper bulan?” or “bila due”. Lepas tu, diammmmmm… cam.. iskk. I understand, they are just being nice, did not mean to be rude ke apa ke, but.. aihhh.. nampak so tak ikhlas lah bila tanya tuh..
2. Bila aku explain apa2… semua angguk2.. iya iya.. pas tu tak paham, buat benda lain.. kalau tak paham tanya lah.. ok?
3. Kedai makan/minum/kaunter tiket/apa2 jer yg bila bayar, buat muka blur..”tak de duit kecik lahhh” pas tu cam buat bodo… like helloooo.. pi la tukar ke apa…
4. Tren lambat (walaupun aku dah lama tak naik tren)
5. Tren rosak
6. Org tak reti nak beratur naik tren
7. Org tak reti kasik org tua/sakit/cacat/NGANDUNG duduk dlm tren
8. Bila nak kuar simpang tapi keter kat main road tu tak kasik kita masuk.. dok la menghimpit2 keter depan dia selagi ada ruang..iskk.. langgar kang baru tau..
9. Internet slow
10. Streamyx down
11. Astro tak dpt signal sbb hujan..tambah2 kalau tgh tgk citer best…
12. Tgh2 masak gas habis…sakit jiwo den!
13. Masuk meeting, aku sorang lain bangsa, sumerang dok cakap bahasa sendiri, like aloooooooo??? Aku ni invisible ke???
14. Nak kuar duit/masuk duit ATM/CDM machine down.. aiseyyyy
15. Last but not least… tgh desperate nak masuk toilet tapi sumer penuh!!! TIDAKKKKKKK!!!

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next.. mother's day..

mcm last year, balqis buat card for me dekat sekolah... so on Saturday (walaupun patut kasik hari ahad) dia kasik card and hadiah..

unlike last year where she wished me "Happy MD ma.. i love you so much, forever and ever!" followed by hugs and kisses, kali ni dia cuma bagi kad, hadiah, pas tu sengih2.. tanya aku.. "suka tak?"

i said.."mesti lah suka..." then aku yg peluk and cium dia.. then aku tanya "so u dont have anything to say ke?" muka dia tekun berfikir kejap.. pas tu dia nyanyi..

Happy Mothers Day to youuuuuu
Happy Mothers Day to youuuuuu
Happy Mothers Day to mamaaaaa
Happy Mothers Day to youuuuuuuuuuuu

(sila ikut tone lagu happy birthday)

heheheh...

Lamanyer tak update

I am too busy with office work. (yes I know aku sempat chatting thru out office hours muhehehehe)

byk sgt benda yg kena update..

like gambar bilik aku yg dah berkurun and dah tak nampak mcm bilik IKEA tuh..
and gambar birthday balqis..
and gambar sports day balqis
and amy punya tag..

iskk.. semua ni perlu masa..

so aku rasa tunggu aku maternity leave la baru nak update semua2 di atas…

apart from that..

-today is a very jolly wonderful day sbb boss aku MC…

-work is like shit.

-Family is doing great. Like Mr Photographer said.. the only thing that makes him happy now is FAMILY, his wife and kid.. ye betul… I lap u tooo..

-Pregnancy is going on really fantastic.. in less than 2 mths (kalau beranak on the 6th) time Insya Allah we will be welcoming our new family member.

-Mr Photographer’s extrenal hardisk KONG!! Terkedu kejap.. sbb all his work, personal stuff simpan dlm tuh. Gambar2.. like wedding, vacation, all gone!! Sib baik ada a few yg aku simpan. Tapi mcm nak nangis jugak la mengenangkan data2 yg ilang.. iskkk..

Till then.. later lah ye... walaupun boss mc tapi keje cam byk...

My big round tummy

Im almost 24 weeks now, 16 more to go.. yippie!!! Well hopefully, less than that lah… kalau cukup 40 weeks my EDD is 19th July, but was thinking haritu kalau la baby kuar on 6th July, the birthdate would be 060708. Cantekkkk kan??

And 6 July is only 13 days earlier.. ok lah tu.. so baby in the tummy, u be good baby and pls come out on 6th okes darling? Then your IC number will be nice mummy tell u.. 080706-14-xxxx. Perghhh.. sapa nak kasik mcm tuh?

Kakak balqis dulu pun ALMOST cantek… kalau dia lahir on 20 March, the birthdate will be 20032003.heheh.. but lewat sehari la plakk… so jadik la 21032003. bleh la labu… asalkan sihat…

Mummy Daddy and kakak Balqis tak sabar2 nak tunggu baby lahir la.. mummy especially.. nak cuti 2 bulan.. wuhuuuuu..syiokkkkk. Then we can stay at home and watch DVD all day long.. hantar and ambik kakak Balqis to/from school, cook, eat, sleep.

And oh yeah.. mummy have to start thinking my plan to kuruskan badan by then… but as of now… mummy nak pk what to have for lunch sat agik… hmmmm.. cam dah lama tak makan blueberry cheese cake for desert kat SC kan daddy kan?

*mode mengada on*

Dugaan……..

Sometimes, kesabaran kita diuji..

Seperti maid yg dijanjikan belum sampai2.. asyik la bertunda2.. next week sekolah dah start.. saper nak hantar ambik balqis? Sapa nak jaga balqis? Tulun kasik idea sket..

Lepas tuh plak..
Bila org yg kita sayang selalunyer laaaaa yg buat kita geram.. sakit hati.. no no.. its not Balqis or Mr Photographer.. I shayaaangg them! It’s just someone else yg aku sayang yg aku geram jugak at the same time… grrrrrrr… but takat geram jer la.. ni lah nama dugaan kan? Kena lah byk bersabo…

Aku fenin… helppp..

Ader tak nak carik keje as driver? Tolong hantar ambik anak aku sekolah kat Danau Kota. Sila hantar resume kat saya ye.. tq..

No joke man.. im demn serious..

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Let’s forget about the dugaan dulu shall we?

Nak dengar good news?

Balqis nak dpt baby SISTER. Hehehhehe. Well either way pun still good news jugak kan? Cuma bila dah tahu gender ni mcm syok sket berangan..

Now where did I simpan baju2 lama Balqis.. hmmm…

Giving birth

I took 1 ½ weeks off from work before EDD. Rabu start cuti, Khamis balik rumah mak. Friday morning bangun Subuh, terasa mcm ada liquid kuar.. was thinking..waterbag pecah ke? Apsal tak mcm dlm tv pon whwre air cam rushing kuar? Apsal sket jer? Buat dek jer la…

Then later nak mandi, noticed ada blood spot, sket jer…. Cam cuak la plak.. told my sister..”kak ani… ada darah!!”

Kak ani said “eh cepat bagitau mak!!!”
I said “alaahhh.. takutttt,… tak yah la.. tak de apa2 kot..”

Bley gitu aku cakap? Iskkk..

Kak ani terus jerit “maaaakkkk…. Liana nak beranak!!”

So mak aku dtg tgk..”dah kuar darah ni dah tanda tuh.. jom pi spital.. pi lah makan dulu..mandi ke, siap2 brg…”

Huhhh..like saper ada appetite nak makan?

Mandi manda, siap2 brg, then went to spital. Tanya kat registration tuh, diorang terus suruh naik atas kat wad bersalin. Aku heran….apsal plak? Aku nak check dgn doc, bukan nak bersalin lagik… I know.. I know.. I am so in denial!!

Naik atas, nurse suruh tukar baju..aku lagi heran… I said “nak beranak dah ke? Tak sakit pun…tak yah check dulu ke? Kang buatnya tak jadi beranak penat jer nak tukar baju..”

Nurse suruh jugak aku tukar baju, baring atas katil.. ada checked my opening…”dah bukak 3 cm nih… nanti kita induce and pecahkan air ketuban tu”

Ohhh..so betul la aku nak beranak dah ek?

So they induced, and pecahkan my waterbag. Few moments after induce, start rasa mild contraction.. aku dok pk, camni ke rasa sakit bersalin? Not so bad lah.. mcm rasa period pain jer… kehkehkehh..

Then check opening lagik.. dah 4 cm.. yippie!!

Tunggu punya tunggu… check lagik… 4 cm lagik.. aikkk.. apsal tak bukak2? Aku pun teguk la air akar fatimah/selusuh, sapu perut itu ini baca itu ini apa yg boleh, apa yg teringat org tua2 cakap..

Tunggu lagik… check lagik… 6 cam dah.. legaaaa…

Still mild contraction pain.. bleh gelak2 la kira2nya..

Masa tu dlm thari lah.. dlm 12-1 camtuh..

Then nurse cakap bleh pergi labour room skang… I said oh ok.. jom!! Aku pun bangun ler nak jalan pi sana.. nurse said “eh tunggu!!! Saya ambik wheel chair!!”

“nak buat apa? Saya ok..boleh jalan..”sempat lagik aku eksyen ish ish ish

“eh jangann!!! Duduk situ tunggu!!!” nurse cakap..

Oklah… so they sorong-ed me in the wheelchair pergi labour room. Kat koridor nampak ler mak aku tgh tunggu.. aku sempat cakap sambik sengih..”byeee…nak pi labour room dah!!” still in eksyen mode kuikuikui…

Sampai labour room.. baring jer la atas katil kan.. tetiba rasa cam sakit yg kunun mild tadik rasa cam makin intense plak… owww noooo…

Check.. 7 cm.. check.. 8 cm..

Pain pain pain pain pain pain pain (darab 15 juta)

Nurse kept saying “adik nafas elok2… kalau sakit tahan nafas…belum boleh teran lagi nih.. tunggu doctor kejap..”

“TAK BOLEH TAHAN DAH!!!! NAK TERKELUAR SGT DAH NI!!!!!”

“tak boleh dikkk… belum bukak habis… tunggu.. tahan…. Doctor pun belum sampai”

“MANA DOCTOR???”

“doc tgh cari parking kat bawah…”

“WATTTTTT????? SURUH JER LA PARKING KAT MANA PUN!!! CEPATLAAAAA”

Yes yes aku ngamuk dlm labor room… habis dgn nurse sumer kena marah.. ada sorang nurse tu I rememberd pulling her baju sbb aku tgh sakit sgt.. hehe..sori ye…

I did not take epidural watever, they only gave me painkiller in the morning. I asked for more painkiller.. but they said kenot.. belum cukup 6 jam.. nanti affect baby..

Aku nangis coz the pain was sooooooooooooo unbearable…

Yg aku tak tahan coz the pain felt like I have to teran, get the baby out.. but nooo, kenot teran.. kena tahan.. TAHAN tu yg aku TAK TAHAN. Mcm ko tgh kena cirit birit but u kenot berak, so tahan your cirit.. bleh tahan ke dak?? And of course.. plus the sakit contraction lagik..

So anyway, doctor came, and checked, and FINALLY said.. “ok, get ready… u push whenever u felt like pushing..”

Hehh?? Camtu ke? Aku dok tgk dlm tv org dok suruh push push.. ajar breathing la.. ni tak dak apa pon???

Nevertheless I felt sooooo legaaaaaaaaaa… finally I can teran!!!!

Nurses get ready keliling aku kasik moral support… “teran akak!! Kuat akak!!” mcm tgh cheer aku masuk marathon plak…

Teran attempt no 1: Failed… Aku rasa muka aku yg nak pecah… okehh..wrong strategy.. I recalled ofis mate aku ajar.. masa teran focus energy kat perut…

Teran attempt no 2: Focus energy kat perut….. and PUSH!!!

And I felt something slimy coming out between my legs…

I saw nurse tekan radio and azan bergema… I heard doc saying “Assalamualaikum…” and doc letak baby atas dada aku…

Ni ke budak yg duduk dlm perut aku selama 9 bulan tuh??

I heard doc asking “baby apa?”

Aku mcm blur… sbb aku sibuk tgk budak kecik niehhh…

Then doc asked again.. “baby apa?”

“huhhh.. ermm.. GIRL!”

“yeap.. healthy baby girl… cuci baby and keluarkan uri sekarang ok”

Then they took the baby, cuci, meanwhile doc keluarkan uri and JAHIT luka aku. Sakit ok time jahit. Apsal org sumer cakap kat aku jahit tak sakit.. tak rasa pun… but my experience with jahit was PAINFUL ok… tipu aaaaaa

Balqis lahir at 2.57pm Friday evening. Syukur.. semua selamat..

Well.. tu citer 5 tahun lepas lahhh.. skang.. budak kecik tuh dah nak masuk 5 tahun dah 21 Mac nieh… everyday dok tanya aku “lagi berapa hari birthday adik?”

Budak kecik ni lahhhh yg aku saaaaaaayang sgt sgt sgt sgt sgt..




And yes.. i guess many of you dah tahu.. Shell dah selamat deliver baby Erina. Congratulations beb! Belum sempat lagik aunti konot nak pi tengok.. nanti2 dah sihat betul auntie dtg ek?

Back in office.

Thanks for those yg concerned.

I am much better, alhamdulillah no more bleeding. But the rest continues lah.. Still no more house work, no more unnecessary jalan2 etc. All planned trip including kenduri outside Klang Valley rasanya tak dpt nak dtg.. minta maaf awal2 pada yg dah menjemput.

Hari ni onwards me and Mr Photographer naik kereta. Apa nak buat, kena lah keluar rumah awal nak avoid the jam. Luckily my parents are aroud till end of the week, boleh tolong hantar-ambik balqis from tadika till new maid comes this week.

Yes, new maid is coming soon, so no more day care for Balqis this month onwards. Suka lah dia.. paling suka of course mamanyer.. ngengenge.. ok ok, call me mengada, manja, watsoever, I KENOT leave without maid ok…. I thought I can, but it turned out mcm2 plak jadi.. first kaki balqih patah kat day care, and she is not happy there, then aku low blood pressure sbb penat sgt, and now bleeding plak…

So I guess those signs are clear enough kan?

Ye aku ngada timaseyyy…

Well anyway...

On Saturday kan Balqis jumpa abah dia?

Aku mengalamni krisis parenting yg so far I can say the most-est kecik hati I’ve ever had.

U see, Balqis mmg ler excited nak jumpa abah dia. So the nite before, dia dah pilih baju mana nak pakai, suruh letak luar siap2, and suruh aku pack brg2 dia siap2. I told her, pack esok pagi lah.. alahai..pack susu jer pun…

Before dia tidur, she pesan to me to kejut her awal… hmmm…

Then dlm 8.30 pagi camtuh dia celik mata, and u know, dia TERUS DUDUK!! And said to me, “ma… adik dah bangun ni… cepat la pack!”

I told her.. “nanti la.. jom la kita golek2 lagi 5 minit”

U see.. kalau cuti, mmg lepas bangun jer mesti dia minta nak peluk/bergolek2 atas katil lagi 5 minit…

And she said ..”tak yah la.. adik nak jumpa abah ni….” Hmmm… okehhh..

After I finish packing, aku tgk la dlm bilik kot2 apa dia tgh buat. Tgk2… dah siap dlm bilik air dah pun, baju semua siap bukak.. dah get ready nak mandi!!

Again.. ni satu benda yg tak pernah berlaku dlm sejarah hidup dia selama almost 5 yrs, sbb budak ni kalau nak suruh bangun mandi pagi mmg liat ya ampun..

Hmmmmmmmm…

Then another thing…

Lepas siap2 pakai baju, dia sikat rambut sendiri. Normally, aku insist dia sikat kemas2, selit rambut elok2 belakang telinga. But noooo.. she always insist nak sikat rambut biar tutup telinga.. lagi lawa katanya…

But that particular day, dia sikat elok2 belakang telinga. I asked why? She said “nanti abah kata cantik kalau sikat mcm ni”

Logic dak kalau aku kecik hati?

Mmg aku kecik hati sgt2 la… but tak de la cakap or did anything… buat dek jer la.. after all apa hasil kecik hati dgn budak 5 tahun?

Mlm tu dia balik, abahnya belikan basikal baru, plus mcm2 lagi gifts.. as usual. I asked “balqis mintak ke basikal?” He said “ha ah… dia mintak, saya beli lah..”

Now I know lah why la Balqis look forward sgt nak jumpa abahnya everytime. Who doesn’t? Everytime jumpa, bukak jer mulut nak apa, semua dpt. Aku rasa esok2 besar mintak kereta pun dpt kot…

Kalau dgn mommy and daddy, minta apa2, tak semestinya dpt there and then. Myself and Mr Photographer selalu discuss dulu whether we shud or shud not get her whatever that she asked. Murah ke, mahal ke (mahal lagi la pk 10 kali kan heheheh), we will discuss whether or not she needs ke tak, elok ke tak etc.

I guess dgn abah dia.. she is treated mcm PRINCESS… just the way she wanted. Dgn we all, princess, princess la jugak.. but I just want her to understand that we are a family. We are the parents, that we have responsibility towards her. I want her to understand that life as a family bukan mcm fairytale where you will be treated mcm PRINCESS 24/7.

Most importantly I need her to understand yg mommy dgn daddy love her so much, and whatever we do, no matter she likes or doesn’t , is for her own good.

I dowan to generalize, but I’ve seen divorced couples yg similar. If the child tinggal dgn mak, the father will normally manjakan anak with harta benda. Everytime jumpa father, ada jer benda yg dpt, toys ke, duit ke etc.

I guess its challenging, to teach your child that harta benda is not everything. Its challenging, to make your child open up their mind and appeciate many things other than monetary.

Aku doa byk2 kat Allah, bagi aku ketabahan, kesabaran and guidance to go through our parenting journey.

Ni baru sikit, ni baru 5 year sold. Kalau dah 10 y.o, 15 y.o esok2..mcm mana?

I know..Balqis loves me and her daddy so much. We are so happy when we are together.

U know.. my favourite moment with them are after our prayers together, particularly lepas salam2 cium tgn semua. Lepas Balqis cium tgn daddy, mommy plak cium tgn daddy then when she nampak daddy cium forehead mommy mesti dia insist nak peluk 3-3 org sekali… alahaiii.. sweetttt…. syiokkk…

Another moment yg aku tak leh lupa is when we were about to sleep, and Balqis insisted nak tidur with us atas katil sesama.. ok lah.. so daddy slept in the middle. Balqis said “Adik peluk daddy, daddy peluk mummy kay?” okay.. so daddy pun turned the right to peluk me. Then I heard Balqis said “alaaaaaaaaa… tak aci lahhhh…nak peluk jugakkkk!!”

Okay lahhh…

So daddy pun tidur lah terlentang tgh2 katil sambik peluk 2 hot babe nih.. (err.. walaupun sorang babe belum cukup umur, and sorang lagik babe tgh bunting hehehe, tapi I’m pretty sure to him we are the hottest girls around wakakakak)

Apa kena mengena cerita ni dgn cerita kat atas tu ek?

Ntah.. aku pun tatau… just felt like writing watever on my mind. I guess whenever I feel sad, aku kena constantly remind myself that mcm mana pun I have Balqis and Mr Photographer with me..

Ambik nko.. punya la panjang post nih...

Pray for us

I'm at home since Wednesday, kena bedrest to be specific.

I havent even stori mori about our trip to Langkawi..:(

Am currently in 20th week of pregnancy now, and I'm experiencing mild vaginal bleeding caused by low lying placenta.

As advised by doctor, kena rest byk2.

Apart from that, baby is healthy, syukur alhamdulillah.

I'm worried.

I wish I cud just stay home till I deliver to ensure everything is okay. Dun think its possible. :(

So it has been 3 days now aku duduk menonong depan TV pagi petang siang malam doing nothing.

Sib baik Balqis dah paham mamanyer tak sihat and she needs to do most of the things on her own. Good girl.. mama love you so much.

Paling best sbb Mr Photographer is treating me mcm new madam besar in the house :P Bila lagi nak anje2(manja) kan?

Tonite and tomorrow will be the worst nite and day for me.

Mr Photographer has to go to Singapore for work. He left petang tadi and balik esok malam. Balqis pulak will be meeting her abah esok pagi sampai malam, and mlm ni plak she insists to sleep at my parents punya room with her cousins semua..

So I am left all alone tonite!!!!

huwaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa

tu pasal aku blom tido lagik even tho dah dekat midnite. how la to sleep alone?

p/s - sebenarnyer aku takut tido sorang muahahaha..

but seriously... i miss my husband and daughter oredi.

camner nak survive esok sorang2 kat rumah nih.. original plan was to go facial and window shopping.. but since kena bedrest, aku facial sendiri and tgk window rumah sorang2 ler...

and u know wat... our Bandung trip in march is definitely CANCELLED!!

but dats okay.. coz i know i July.. something better is waiting for us!

so u all... please pray for us kay?

Aku ingat aku terer…

Was on MC semlm. Pagi2 bangun rasa pening2 lalat… duduk kejap kat bilik air and pk punya pk, I decided not to go to work.

Balqis happy lah kan? Tried to tunjuk muka 5 sen, tak mo pergi sekolah sbb nak jaga aku sakit kat rumah..konon lah.. tak dpt la jack.. “sekolah mesti pergi, but day care tak payah..mama ambik from sekolah and u can stay at home ok?” I said.. and even tho muka sedih.. pergi jugak ler ke sekolah..

Lepas siap2.. bfast, pergi klinik, and u know wat doc said “blood pressure low sgt nih!! Kenapa? Penat sgt kot? Wat hepen?”

Huhhh?? And I tot aku pening2 lalat jer…(plus malas kuikuikui)

So doc asked me to minum 100plus byk2.. makan benda manis2..masin2.. jgn diet2.. jgn penat2..

Isskkk.. how la… (part jgn control makan aku I likeeee…muehhehhe)

Part makan minum, I think (100% sure) mmg aku tak control pun… but part penat tuh.. hmm.. well.. so far since tak de maid, I tot I am okay. Sikit2 penat tu ader la..but tak la sampai terlentang tido everynite tak sedar apa2. Bleh lagik la tahan…

But mebbe I overestimated myself kot. Ingatkan terer.. lupa lak aku bawak budak dlm perut kan? Mebbe aku sendiri tak rasa penat sgt, but somehow dah effect sket2 kat physical body. Cian baby mama dlm perut…

So, nak tak nak, mak aku balik ke tak balik from taiping, we will hire maid ASAP. Tgk lah mcm mana aku dgn Mr Photographer nak bahagi time tgk2 kan maid kat rumah.

Ada sesapa nak volunteer buat kerja rumah aku angkat tgn!!

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Aku dah start ngajar tuition this year.. (I know.. I know.. dah penat2 lagi nak ajar ek??) but I tell you… after dah lama tak ajar… syiok gila ok.. cam lepas gian!!! Seriously..

Initial plan mmg nak all out this year.. but maid tak de, pregnant plak tuh, so tukar plan, this year tak mo buat. But sorang kakak ni insist jugak minta tlg ajar anak dia nak UPSR tahun nih. Last year anak dia tuition UPSR dgn aku gak, and alhamdulillah dpt 5A. So kakak ni was hoping I can help the other child to improve jugak (excuse me while aku masuk bakul angkat sendiri.. ehemmm)

So I decided ok lah.. tolong apa yg patut. Since tuition pun buat kat rumah aku sendiri, tak de hal sgt nak berkejar ke sana sini. Time bersalin nanti pun dah ada cikgu ganti siap2 dah.. sapa lagi kalau bukan Mr cikgu photographer hehehe..

p/s to mr photographer – ajar maths dgn science tau.. bukan teknik mengambil gambar atau edit gambar ye encik! Timaseyyy..

His masterpiece

Photos of the 2 most lovely ladies in Mr Photographer's life...kuikuikui.. taken and edited by him.

Tak de model lain kan... kitorang jer la...

Tak lama lagi tambah lagi sorang model... Insya Allah. But dunno model laki ke pompuan. Semlm pi check up, doc could not confirm the sex yet.. malu ek nak tunjuk? So doc said "nampak mcm Balqis jugak" but still belum confirm lah.. kena check again next month.

But regardless boy or girl, mommy and daddy and kakak Balqis will be the most-est happiest people to have you in our lives!

I'm 17 weeks pregnant now. Can feel the baby movement oredi sket2. But semlm time scan dia tido agaknyer.. syok jer nampak tutup muka dgn tgn... :)

Semlm was Balqis punya 1st time ikut pi checkup. Once I baring kat tempat nak scan, Balqis pun get ready depan screen nak tgk baby... kuar jer gambar.. I heard Balqis saying "ala alaaaa... comelnyer baby!!!! ala alaaaaa"

padahal gambar itam putih yg blur tuh... nampak bentuk kepala baby jer ok.... even doc said "aper yg kakak Balqis nampak tuh??? doctor pun tak nampak apa lagi nih!!"

muahahahhaha... betapa excitednyer nak tgk adik dia tuhhh..gambar yg blur pun jadi comel!

kebetulan this round of pregnancy pun dgn same doc yg deliver Balqis. so the doc asked Balqis "ingat tak kat doctor? doctor la yg mula2 sekali Balqis nampak muka" and Balqis pun confidentnyer angguk.. "ingat!!" muehehheh...

Aku teringin nak makan….

Last weekend MIL masak daging asam pedas melaka style. Lain sket from normal asam pedas yg aku pernah nampak. Dia taruk kentang nak bagi kuah pekat sket.

And the rasa? Sedap sgt sgt sgt sgt sgt sgt sgt.

Dekat 10 kali kot aku ulang alik dapur dok ratah asam pedas tuh.. sib baik ngandung.. tak de la pelik mak mertua aku tgk kebulur sgt menantu dia ni kan? Heheheh

Mak sedara aku kat subang plak mmg pandai masak. Dulu kitorang pergi dinner rumah dia, dia masak sambal sotong (plus many other lauks). The sambal sotong is sooooooo yummy in the tummy.

About few weeks lepas tu ada family gathering lagi kat rumah dia, awal2 aku chop menu sambal sotong.

Again, sib baik pregnant kan? Dia betul2 masak seperiuk sambal sotong.. sian kot takut anak aku kempunan (mak nyer yg terliur…)

Skang ni dari pagi tadi aku dok terbayang2 asam pedas mak mertua aku buat. Nak tunggu weekend ni balik subang mcm lambat sgt.. so lunch ni aku nak merayau carik kuah asam pedas.. but I’m pretty sure tak de yg sesedap mak mertua aku buat huhuhhh..

p/s - tgh chat dgn farah, dok citer la aku tingin asam pedas… dia dgn syok nyer cakap nak suruh mak dia masak mlm nih!!! Iskkkk jeles tau!!!!!!!! Not helping dgn kempunan aku langsung pompuan nihhhhh!!

Hey!!! My seat!!

Finally, I think my perut dah start nampak sikit. (mostly lemak I think, due to my ‘healthy’ eating habit and no exercise, I quit gym btw)

Jap side story sat..

When I was 6 or 7 weeks kot, Balqis asked me
Balqis: Ma, baby dah besar ke?
Me: Belum..
Balqis: Habis tu kenapa perut mama besar??

Chaissssss… terhina kejap aku..hehhehe

Ok back to the original story.

Alaa..baru 3 bulan pregnant..besar mana lah sgt perut kan? Baju maternity pun belum beli lagik, so everyday berbaju kurung jer la pi kerja. Bila cenggini, org tak tahu la aku pregnant kan. Tak der la org offer aku seat dlm train kan.. so kena lah sabar berdiri dlm tin sardine tuh..

Semalam.. finally aku rasa ada org noticed that I’m pregnant.. and offered me her seat dlm tren. Nice lady!!!! Happynyer aku… tersengih2 cakap tq.. and makcik yg berdiri sebelah kanan aku pun sibuk suruh aku duduk (kesian tgk muka seposen aku agaknya).

Sekalik tuhhhh..

Ada sorang minah yg berdiri sebelah aku nih, dgn muka tak malunyer terus duduk kat tempat kosong tuh!!!

The lady yg kasik tempat tu blur… makcik sebelah kanan aku ni pun blur…(she even said “alahaiii.. kesiannya awak!”)

Takkan nak gaduh pasal seat kan? So aku pun dgn muka tersengih (yg sungguh tak ikhlas) said “tak per la…” padahal dlm hati cam menyirap aaa sket2.. penat ok berdiri! Dgn pening and nak muntahnyer lagik.

So azam aku lepas ni, perut tak besar mana pun nak pakai jugak baju maternity secepat mungkin… supaya org kasik aku seat dlm tren muehehehehhe.

Mr Photographer said “U shud pakai tag besar2 tulis I AM PREGNANT”