Whats goin on lately

Banyak….

But I’m trying to think of a specific topic to cerita supaya post aku tak berterabur.

So let’s start with topic aku sibuk nak mengandung.

As you all know sofeya gonna be 3 this year. Some say sedang elok la kalau nak bagi dia adik skang. Jarak2 sgt pun tak elok. Plus umur aku pun dah masuk mid 3 series ni… hmmm..

Kenapa aku sebelum ni menggebu2 tak nak anak lagi.

1. Sebab aku rasa Sofeya is still a baby (hehhh.. balqis pun aku rasa mcm baby lagik!) and aku blum puas dok gomol2 dia. She still have the baby punya scent, especially area mulut and leher and celah ketiak and u know.. all over her!! Besh!!! Kalau aku ada baby lain, aku rasa mcm tak puas nak manja2kan sofeya..

2. Sebab Sofeya is still breastfeeding (I knowww… blum stop!!!) and aku kesian nak stop kan dia bfeed sebab dia memang tak nak minum formula. She only takes dutch lady strawberry/chocolate yg dlm kotak tu. Susu putih kalau, memang dia muntah belahak. Makan dia Alhamdulillah okay.. buat still, aku rasa she still needs the milk supply. So selagi aku larat, aku bfeed lah dia..

3. Sebab paling UTAMA!! Aku tak larat. Previously aku ada post pasal perangai sofeya yg tantrum. And seriously memang this is why aku belum nak anak lagi. Aku takut aku tak terkejar. Mana dgn balqis, mana dgn sofeya, dgn mr p, dgn keje aku lagik. The list is neverending lah.

Sometimes (most kot) aku rasa mcm aku tak de time for my own self. Siang keje. Balik rumah aku attend to family punya needs and attention. Sometimes aku end up tak nyempat2 mandi and terbongkang tido with the kids. Tu gaya2 ada maid kat umah. Kalau tak de? I kenot imagine.

With current situation, memang definitely aku tak boleh afford to have another baby.. nope…

But..

This month punya period aku agak lambat. Dlm berdebar takut terpregnant, TERdetik jugak kat hati aku, mcm best jugak ada baby eh? And I was kindda hoping kot2 TERpregnant ke.. and surprisingly, aku kindda disappointed when my period finally came..

Plus haritu at pasar malam, I saw this one little baby tgh tido atas bahu mak dia dgn mulut mcm separuh bukak.. oh you know..  like this…

Geram!!!!

Plus, a friend of mine baru dpt news dia pregnant. Mcm besh pulak ngandung ye? (agak2 kalau aku buat ngidam bag LV time pregnant mr p kasik dok?)

Plus, 2 kids is sikit sgt I suppose. At least 3 kot.. mr p wants FIVE tho. *pengsan*

Tapi pk pk balik..

Tunggu maid aku setel after raya. Once setel, project mega starts!! :p

Meanwhile sila kuruskan badan dulu konot oiiiiiiiiiiiiiii