I should’ve blog about it right away..

You know the feeling when you feel strongly about something and your are mentally blogging about that something already?

Selalu happened to me. Then bila aku rasa camtu, most of the time aku tak de time nak actually log about it.. then would just go away kapofff mcm tu je.. or eventually something else akan came up and it would be entirely different story oredi.

Sigh.

I wanted to blog about balqis at school.. as what I updated in FB. But then this morning in ofis something else came up that I instantly felt differently oredi. Might as well blog about this first.

Aku dah ada draft about ni (ofis thingy) somewhere.. but might as well type a new one.

I HATE working here u know.. oh well HATE is an understatement. Other that the tak de bonus and below average rating thing, I just feel that my nature of work doesn’t suit banking industry.

Pandai eh konot.. dah seploh tahun ko keje bank baru sedar????

Well not entirely lah.. I think ESPECIALLY new bank mcm bank bodo ni (i am so glad that my blog is private ngengengeneg) diorang mcm tak value sgt what I do. Unlike other bank besar yang dah establish expecially the foreign banks.

So..

As a result.. people don’t take me seriously. Ditambah pulak dgn nature perangai aku tak reti nak push2 org.. tak reti nak gaduh2 dgn org.. LAGIK la menambahkan ketidaksesuaian aku bekerja kat sini.

Paham?


Tak eh?

Tak pe..


Sebagai analogy.. ko ada anak umur 2 tahun.. ko nak ajar dia disiplin.. nak marah bagai2.. ada dia pedulik? Budak 2 tahun only cares nak main.. makan.. main.. makan..ko nak enforce disiplin.. suruh solat ke.. suruh baca buku ke.. ko ingat dia ada ambik pedulik? Jgn kata ambik pedulik.. ko terjerit terpekik la sorang2.. mmg budak tu tak paham and tak pedulik…

As opposed to ada anak umur 10 tahun. Yang dah reti bahasa. Yang MEMANG kena kita nak enforce some rules. Suruh study, suruh solat. Tak buat benda2 tu then kita kena punish.. or reward if the opposite.. they will learn and appreciate accordingly.

Paham ke?


Well you may say that the way to disiplin a 2 year old is different… yes I agree BUT my nature of disiplin-ing (or work lah in this case) is suitable for a 10 year old kid..

Get it?

So whatever I do here with a 2 year old is a BLARDY WASTE OF TIME. Hati pun sakit.


Sakit hati okeh. When you are not appreciated. When you are not taken seriously.


Some people cakap dgn aku that I never komplen about work. Memang aku jarang.. because I just don’t care anymore.


Aku kan.. kalau nak panggil meeting kan.. mcm mintak sedekah ok. Dah la org just dont bother to respond when i send invitation. Bila finally dah accept.. bila time meeting, kena pulak panggil bentang kapet merah sorang2..

Hantar email pun tak pernah nyer respond. Nak kena jugak ngadap muka sorang2 mcm mintak sedekah. Kalau kena org yg elok tak pe.. ni ada pulak jenis org yg menyombog.. mcm kan dia sorang yg sibuk dlm bank ni.. jenis tak tau nak hormat org.


Habih tu.. aku jugak tak meet KPI kan?

Orang tak comply.. aku yang underperformed.

Sakit hati aaaaahhh!!!