30 April 2013

Reflection...6 months and counting

Sedar tak sedar, dah 6 months aku jadi full time housewife.


Baru 6 mths.. jgn nak poyo mcm dah 6 tahun :p



Dulu masa aku kecik2.. aku pernah tengok satu citer.. Nona kot.. or yang seangkatan dgnnya.

Pasal Sharifah Sheril Aida. Pernah dengar tak dia? Dulu celebrity, pas tu kawin dgn VIP. Terus dok rumah focus kat family.

Masa interview tu, I remember she said

"saya masih ada pembantu rumah... untuk tolong2 kemas rumah.."


*the interveiw was bout her life etc*


Something like that lah.. Can't remember


Masa tu, I remember I thought to myself.. huk eleh... kau dah dok rumah, nak pembantu apanyer? Buat je la semua sendiri.


I still have that kindda thinking sampai la recently actually!


Ni aku dah dok rumah, buat semua sendiri, baru aku sedar, baru aku terbukak mata.


You simply CAN'T do everything on your own.

Boleh tu boleh.. tapi tak perfect lah.


Memang betul org cakap stay at home mom ni lagi demanding.


I wake up at 5.30 am EVERY morning (weekends as well!).

But I go to sleep awal lah.. before 12 dah pengsan.


Actually I can stay up if I want to. Nak blog ke, nak buat kerja rumah ke. But I choose not to sacrifice my beauty sleep.

*vain sgt. lempang diri sendiri*


With average of 6 hours sleep pun (and no day time nap!) pun aku still terkejar2 nak buat kerja rumah.


Hari ni kain baju bertabur atas carpet.

Esok kain baju dah clear bilik air pulak nak kena sental.

Lusa lantai plak melekit dah kena vacuum and mop satu rumah.

Tulat tengok2 berabuk balik rumah aku!!!

The next day dah bertimbun balik  kain baju atas karpet.


Mana nak masak lagi, hantar ambik anak2 lagi, blog lagi, nak update brg2 jualan lagi, pegi post ofis etc.


Lately aku tersedar that I have not been  focusing on my children punya education.


Tu pun kena spent at least 1 hour daily with them nak monitor their progress.


Nak menjaga diri sendiri lagi.. kena jugak spent at least 1-2 hours daily to exercise and taking care of myself.



And I wonder


WHYYYYYYYYYYY

YOUUUUUUUUUUU

PEOPLEEEEEEEEEEE

SAYYYYYYYYYYY


DUDUK RUMAH BUAT APA PUN??


*dont ever say that me. lempang karang!*



Kekdg tu aku mcm pressure jugak bila laki balik, bila org dtg terkejut, rumah x berkemas, meja berhabuk, kain baju x berlipat.

Tapi fikir2 balik.. bukannya sebelum tu aku duduk mengangkang layan citer Korea kat youtube.

Memang dari pagi sampai malam aku buat keje x berenti. Tak pernah ada masa nak duduk berehat kejap, unless aku sakit.


And I don't know why keje rumah tak pernah habis.


Kekdg mmg terniat dlm hati, nak keje balik. The only thing that stops me from jobhunting is anak2 jek.

Bila terpandang muka diorang and seeing how happy they are when I'm at  home, rasa mcm, tak pe la aku sacrifice la untuk diorang.



With the current situation I really do not know how to juggle my time kalau nak buat part time work.




 

lawa tak spek baru aku? *tetiba*



Lately aku selalu sakit belakang. I think previous 2-3 entries pun aku ada mention aku sakit belakang sampai x leh nak gerak kan?

Few days back sakit lagi. But boleh la gerak, cuma tang nak sujud tu agak hazab.

Tengah2 drive pun kalau salah pusing nak tgk side mirror boleh menjerit kesakitan.



But, with all of these, I never regret pun decision nak duduk rumah.

Besa la... alangkan keje pun dok komplen itu ini tak kena..


At this moment, kalau offer keje dtg bagi gaji belas2 ribu pun Insya Allah aku tolak..

*wahhh sapa nak kasik kau belas ribu konottt*


Sebab.. I seriously understand now, that MONEY CAN'T BUY HAPPINESS.


*tapi aku happy jugak dpt spek baru..ngeh ngeh*



Dah.. tu jer nak citer...


:)




4 comments:

Unaizah said...

Mai kita lempang sama-sama mereka yg empunya mulut laser. Umum kebanyakannya fikir surirumah ni byk masa free....blh relax-relax, blh tido bila-bila masa, etc. Faham sgt your feelings :-)

Norliana Abdul Rahman said...

yeeee betul!!!

tensi tau.. rasa mcm hangin jek bila org ingat kita ni goyang kaki je kat rumah...

Anonymous said...

a'ah lah..tgk akak sy yg housewife dah mcm zombi je tiap2 petang...nak2 time anak balik skolah x nak salin baju....Boleh bergegar rumah dgr dia jerit...tp respect pd dia, buat keje rumah dr pg smpai ptg kdg2 mlm, x mrungut sgt pn...so Congratulation to Housewife...
"U're actually Domestic Engineers"

Norliana Abdul Rahman said...

kitorang ni domestic engineer cum vocal engineer.. tehehhe.. i pun hari2 training suara... kes kes..

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