Tragedi semalam

Last nite, I encountered a life threatening emergency case..

hehe..ok la..not la so serious...but akak panik la jugak..

i was watching tv..tak ingat citer apa..balqis oredi asleep in the room.. i fell asleep on the couch. about 5-10 minutes i woke up..suddenly i feel mcm kena asthma attack. bukan macam..mmg kena.. stange thing is 10 minutes earlier i was okay. suddenly kena. usually kalau asthma mesti happen something b4, mcm gelak byk sgt ke..or habuk byk sgt.

anyway...i had difficulty in breathing.. wheezing sound was very loud and clear. i think last time i had this was more than a decade ago...selalu nyer sikit2 jer..

started to panic...coz inhaler tak der...ubat pon tak der.. tried coughing few times to clear the chest and throat...better sket. went to bed, and put 2 bantal below my head to ensure my head tinggi sket so that can breathe easily..

after a moment it came back...thsi time was worse...really kenot breathe... tried to sleep..hoping that it will go away..(yea rite). but when i close my eyes jer 1st thing teringat arwah wife M Nasir yg meninggal tgh malam sbb asthma. errrkkk.....

okay...think! think!!!

i went to my parents room..carik my dad punya inhaler... sedut2..apsal tak kuar apa nih...tak per la...tido balik jap... still kenot get the image of arwah wife M Nasir out of my mind. Dlm kepala dah pk mcm2.. insurans aku? ader... education fund balqis? ader.. EPF? nama balqis. benificiary umah? balqis..utang org? Insya Allah tak der...

dah la baru baca email on facing death..wore by a friend of friend... dok citer pasal amalan... taubat, etc.. masa tu terasa sungguh tak cukup nya amalan dan ilmu akhirat!! terasa sungguh kecil and jahilnya diri ini! malu pon ader...dah desparate mcm tu baru nak pk itu ini tak cukup..

masa tu la pk what have i achieved in my life, what i have not done for myself, dunia akhirat, my family, and my baby. pk sapa nak jaga my princess, kesian dia... uhuk uhuk...

ok la cut the drama..

sib baik my parents at home. i kejut my father.. " inhaler ni pakai camner? apsal liana tekan2 tak kuar apa pon" he said.."yg tu dah habis...ambik dlm poket ayah"

lerrr....patut la tak jalan...

so i used the new inhaler... after few minutes, alhamdulillah okay...

legaaaa!!!!

moral of the story... hari ni bali keje singgah beli inhaler...

but most importantly... ok la i know la the incident tak de la near death experience ke apa...but menyedarkan la jugak..that death can come anytime...unexpected.. so be prepared..jgn leka..

dah cukup ke ilmu dan amalan nak bawa ke akhirat?