Balqis and her father

Yesterday maid told me.

Maid : Tadi balqis try call mama, call ofis tak dpt, call hp tak dpt, lalu saya tanya la...nak call sapa sekarang?
Maid : Balqis kata - "nak call abah lah"
so she called la her father. asked him to buy her CD elmo.

last nite, i asked her.

me: balqis...tadi balqis call saper?
balqis: balqis call mama la...
me: lagi? balqis call saper?
balqis: call mama laaaaaaaa.....
me: aik? tu jer? cakap la...balqis call sapa lagi?
balqis: tak aderrr....call mama ajerrr.....
me: betul ke? naper tak nak cakap dgn mama? bukan nak marah pon...
balqis: (sambil sengih2)... balqis call abah la....
me: oh ye ke...balqis cerita apa dgn abah?
balqis: abah kata.."hello, saper ni, ok bye" hehhehe...adik mintak CD elmo, adik nak pegi zoo tgk elephant dgn abah.
me: mama nak ikut!!!
balqis: haa...boleh!! jom pi zoo jom!!

anyway...my point is. I'm glad she knows her father. BUT!! at the same time ada la skeeettt insecure punya feeling. what if she loves her father more? what if this, what if that..

stupid ek? oh well...no matter how much i rationale myself about this, no matter what people tell me, i still have those feelings.

but no worries.. i have never done anything to separate her from the father. he is welcomed to see her anytime that he wants. of course, ada sikit limitations. depending on her age and condition now.

Whatever that we have decided pon is for her own good. I just hope 1 day she will understand what is happening. That everyone loves her. And I certainly dowan her to hate anyone, coz me and the father also never hate each other.

Despite saying this... konon2 mcm rational habis..hehe...i still feel insecure!!! jahatnyer aku!!!