Lesson of the day

Aku ni ada satu pe-el, I always have to learn my lesson the hard way. Dah kena berkali kali kali kali… baru ler nak take some action. By that time, mmg the damage has been pretty bad.


But then again, its never too late kan?


Maybe because aku ni baik kot, I like to give people 2nd, 3rd, and gazillion-th chance. I like to think that people can change. I hope that people will change. I am a people pleaser by nature pon. Another reason is because I am afraid of change kot…


Example paling clear is my 1st marriage. From the very beginning dari zaman boypren gelpren I sensed something is wrong. But aku sabarkan and hope that everything will change for the better.


Sampai masuk zaman tunang, again I had the chance to end it, but I did not do anything.


Sampai kawin, sampai dpt balqis.. then baru la aku terhegeh2 nak fikir that I should’ve done something.


Although by then it seems kindda too late, and the impact is pretty bad, I still have to do it anyway..


And no… I am not regretting what happened. In fact now, aku kindda bersyukur it happened coz klu idak, aku & balqis tak happy mcm sekarang.


Cuma the challenge now is to get Balqis to understand and adapt to the situation.


By understanding and adapting.. heheh.. well that has to be in another post!

Panjang btul example aku… :P


Anyway my point is… learn your lesson people.


Aku quote farah (you prob don’t remember u saying this)


“the moment u sense something is wrong, then something is wrong”


Apesal aku tiba2 citer pasal ni eh?


Pasal recently we (aku & Mr Photographer) had to go thru something really messy.
Eh no no no.. not abt our marriage.. hahah.. we are perfectly happily married couple. Gadoh sket2 manja2 ngada2 itu adalah satu kebiasaan.. :P


I dowan to citer in detail, pasal it involves maruah org. And no, this is not abt our maid.


In short, we have been tolerating berkali2 with this person. We had to endure the mistakes, the problems and most of all we had to put up with the sickening attitude. And the best part is, bukannya kitorang yang desperately need the favor..its the other way around.


Pelik kan? Tak paham btul org mcm ni. You want something from us, boleh pulak nko buat perangai marah2 kitorang. Dah buat salah, tak paham2 salah sendiri, let alone nak apologize!


Mr Photographer ni, jarang sgt la meletup nak marah2 org. First time aku tengok dia mmg blow (technically aku tak tengok, aku dgr dia cerita) was with our former tenant. If you have been following my blog, aku sejak dulu mmg hangin dgn mamat ni. Mmg sampai kesudah dia buat hal. Last2.. berperang mulut jugak la Mr Photographer dgn dia.


Nasib baik perang mulut. Mr Photographer cakap sket lagi jer dia nak hentak mamat tu dgn helmet, mmg dah menyirap ler masa tuh…


Nasib baik tak bertumbuk nkooooo..


Now, disebabkan kebengongan some people, untuk kali kedua nya selama aku kenal Mr Photographer dia telah meletup atas tahap kesabaran yang telah dilampaui batas.


Tapi idak ler sampai bertumbuk. Laki aku ni klu marah pun pro okeh... cakap yg berfakta.


Kalu aku ler.. time tgh marah mmg dah tak boleh susun ayat elok2. Nak cakap A jadik Z. Udahnyer aku nangis huahuahuahuauah


Dipendekkan cerita that fella agak terkedu sbb dia ingat selama ni laki aku boleh telan jer apa dia buat. Tu la nkooo... carik pasal dgn laki aku sapa suruh?


Well that someone apologized. Okeh.. fine.. boleh habis cerita. But the damage has been done. Agak payah nak back to normal.


Lesson learnt for us, we agreed that from the very beginning kitorang mmg rasa tak sedap hati.. but we continued anyway dealing with this fella. So next time.. klu rasa semcm tu.. end it there and then… tak payah nak hope for anything better in future!

Hari ni anniversary aku part II

My anniversary week was...ermm... FUN?

No lah. not really fun.. then fun part was becoz i get to stay home for ALMOST one full week... walluweyy.. syiokkkk...

and another fun part coz AKU DAPEK HANDBEG BARU nganagagagagga

The not so fun part... in fact... the part yg aku paling tak sampai hati is anak2 aku, especially balqis demam panas sepanas2 dunia...

Sofeya is alright... alhamdulillah... ada sket batuk2.. but alhamdulillah no demam..

Balqis on the other hand... demam panas ya amat... and nak menambahkan lagi sakit.. asthma pulak menyerang...

in a week...
balqis jumpa dr khairul 3 times..
sofeya jumpa dr khairul 2 times..

aku lah mak kepada patient yg paling glamer kat naluri..
asal balqis pergi, sumer tanya "mana adik?"
asal sofeya pergi, org tanya "mana kakak?"

aku jugak ler penyumbang terbesar profit naluri

so anyway...

despite all the dugaan, aku sentiasa bersyukur. sebab bila ada dugaan cenggini, lagi merapatkan our family relationship. (ye la klu dah dok rumah berkepit dgn anak seminggu mana tak rapat kan heheh).

and aku pun nampak the fatherly side of Mr Photographer yg sebelum ni tak nampak... dia ni mmg manjakan anak melebihkan aku sebenornyer... tengok anak sakit.. mmg dia paling tak sampai hati. Nak bagi Balqis cepat baik demam... sangguplah daddy nyer belikan anything that she wants... fuhh.. bahagia lah si balqis kan? demam sekali.. dpt toy idaman...

well i think all fathers are like that kot.. aku dulu pun time masuk spital surgery appendix masa umo sploh tahun dulu.. time tu la bapak aku belikan mcm2.. benda yg aku mintak berbuih2 mulut.. masa tu la aku dpt semua..muahahahhaha

ehh.. aku rasa nak demam...
ehh.. aku mcm nak henfon baru..
muahahhahaha

another update on balqis.. gigi depan dia dah patah satu (deiii..gigi patah pun nak apdate? sukati aku lah kannnn) gigi kapak 2 ketul tu mmg dah longgar... then dok bergelak ketawa tak hengat,.. terhantuk kepala kat dinding maka bertambah longgar la one of the gigis.

gatal jer tgn aku nak cabut, tapi dia takut. so next morning the gigi naturally tercabut time dia tgh kunyah nasik... setel!

she looks extremely cute... dgn seketul gigi kapak left.. hehhe.. i took photos.. tapi this girl is so beauty conscious now.. klu ada gambar dia yg tak cantik, dia tak kasik publish kat blog... dia paksa aku delete the photo, bley?

well i can publish the photo if i want.. tapi atas sebab empunya diri dah awal2 warning jgn publish.. aku mcm tak sedap hati plak.. ( ye i know kan aku dah cakap aku ni lurus bendul)

dah ler about my anniversary update.. tunggu tahun depan punya anniversary pulak kot2 ada candle light dinner ke apa ke... hehehhe

TIGA PULUH

Aku baru sedar yesterday was my 100th post.. :)

And this will be my 101th post.. sempena menyambut My Photographer's 30th birthday.

Yeap.. today is his birthday..

I don't really know what to write.. coz apa yg aku terpikiaq skang ni mcm all lovey dovey punya stuff yg lebih sesuai nak ditulis masa anniversary (which is coming soon, less than a mth). But hey.. since anniversary pun dah dekat, so ni kira birthday + anniversary post sekalik lah eh?

So let's see... hmmm..

I rarely post anything about him. Most of my posts revolve around my girls.. my girls... and my girls.. but jarang bebeno aku cakap pasal my one and only Photographer..

That, doesn't mean i dont love him as much as i love my girls..

Sapa tak sayang laki oiiiiiiiii...

I love him, and i love him too much..

We are human. he has his flaws and i have mine. we have our differences, we argue, we fight, but we cant stay away from each other too long coz we'll miss each other terribly.

Dgn dia, aku jarang rasa insecure. I trust him, and i trust him with all my heart. I consider myself one lucky girl (girl la.. rasa muda mueheheh) sbb Mr Photographer ni org yg sgt jujur. Aku tau dia sayang aku.. aku tau dia sayang anak2. And i know he will do anything to make us happy.

Tak pernah (alhamdulilah) aku rasa dia menipu in our relationship. Sebabnyer dia org yg sgt jujur. Apa yg dia buat semua aku tau, so klu dia citer ada org nak ngorat dia pun, tak de pulak aku rasa jeles.. sbb aku tau dia mmg sayang kat bini dia (yg prasan comel tapi blum kurus) yg sorang nieh.. (sorang je kan kan kan?)

Coming from failed marriage dulu.. i tend to compare and appreciate him more. For being him, for accepting me the way i am and for loving balqis like his own daughter. Even tho it has been almost 2 yrs (now ni dah mcm anniversary punya entry, bukan birthday!), but i still wake up every morning and be thankful that he is mine.

So to my one and only Photographer..

Happy birthday..
Semoga Allah murahkan rezeki dan memberkati umur..

From your girls..

Mama the belum kurus
Balqis the cantik manis
Sofeya the koala bear