With or without maid?

Semalam aku dah draft post ni tapi belum publish.
Hari ni aku tgk ada org jumpa blog aku dgn search keyword ni


"maid besar kepala tak boleh ditegur"


Hahhhh what a coincidence kan?


Mari kita cerita!!!


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Maid is really getting on my nerves.


Can't deny that she's good with Sofeya. Dgn perangai budak tu yg tantrum, I admit mmg maid je yg  boleh tahan and sabar dgn budak tu.


THIS IS the only reason aku masih bersabar dgn maid.


Apart from that, dah lama aku halau balik.


Sometimes aku mcm nak gila tahan sabar kat rumah. Its my house. Tapi weekend kalau buleh aku tak nak duduk rumah ngadap muka dia.


People say I'm too baik. Memang la. Kalau layan mcm hamba kang sudahnya tukar maid every month. Kalau baik sgt gini pulak jadi. Aku cuma pk anak2 jer. Kalau tukar maid selalu kang silap2 dpt yg dera budak, lagi haru.


Biar la aku emotionally and mentally tortured, asal anak2 aku okay.




Please excuse what I'm about to say, but bangsa diorang ni mmg tak reti bersyukur. Tolong la sedar kau tu orang susah. Datang negara orang cari rezeki, jangan nak demand lebih2.


I really think our country should just sent them all back.
Give some incentives to mothers who work or stay at home.


Kalau tanya aku, better without maid. 
But tu la.. the grass is always greener on the other side.
Kang dah tak de maid terkangkang2 pulak aku nak buat keje rumah. 
Tension jugak kan?


Aku tanya mr p, "dulu time kita tak de maid I byk komplen tak?"
Dia kata " Banyakkkkkkk, penat la, itu la, ini la"


Cittt...


Maybe aku ada komplen, tapi one thing for sure hati aku mmg tenang.


Skang? komplen masih ada, maybe kurang. 
TAPIIII hati aku sakit.
Otak aku serabut.
Jiwa aku sengsara.




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Sometimes aku rasa mcm helpless. Like we have no one to depend on.





Since Sofeya start sekolah we have been contemplating about her transport balik.


Maid can't pick her sebab clash dgn time Balqis nak pegi skolah.


Mr p can't afford to masuk ofis lambat hari2 sebab nak ambik anak balik skolah. Like last week he had to go outstation and no one could pick Sofeya, sudahnya budak tu tak pegi skolah.


School van is an option. Tapi tadi cikgu skolah advised, dia ni asyik nangis je kat skolah and since she's too small, toksah lagik naik van.


Every morning seblm pegi skolah dia kena nangis dulu meraung2 tak nak pegi.


I dono what happened sbb aku dah pegi keje dulu. Maid yg setelkan. Balik skolah mr p ambik.


Useless mother.


See, mcm mana aku nak halau maid balik skang? Dgn Sofeya mcm ni lagik.


Sigh.


Mr p said wait another month. Then we see how.





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Ikut hati aku nak brenti keje.
Nak jadi housewife.
Tak payah risau sapa nak jaga anak2 aku.
Makan minum rumahtangga terjaga.


Sigh.


Rasanya dah bebel about resigning ni dah lama.
Tapi tak buat2 jugak.


Ntah la I dono what's stopping me.