27 August 2009

Selamat berpuasa

Belum start tulis aku dah nak nangis..
Mlm tadi dah berkodi2 aku nangis kat laki aku
Pagi tadi while bercerita dgn ofismate pun aku nangis lagi.
Dot call pun aku nangis lagi.

Sofeya sakit lah..
Batuk for 1 week.
Followed by demam for another week.
Then no appetite.. tak makan for few days.
Thank God dia nak menyusu.
Then cirit lagi..

And she's sooo not herself..
Diam... mandomm... clinging to me 24/7

So she was admitted to hospital for 3 days.


Tengok dia kat hospital...
I kenot describe lah.. nanti aku nangis.
Makhruh posa aku ok?


Dulu masa admitted and kena buat suction, aku x sanggup tengok. So i went out of the room, while Mr Photographer yg pegang dia. Aku dok pk, she is 1 mth old, tak paham lagi klu aku tak de pun.


Now.. she is 13 mths old.
Masa nak kena ambik darah / masuk drip, the nurses (3 of them) balut dia dgn selimut, and aku pegang / peluk dia, while they struggled to keep her hand straight. Budak ni i tell u... sgt kuat bila meronta...


Seeing Sofeya meronta (see aku dah nak nangis), mcm ambik pisau tikam dada aku ok... u might as well tikam aku jer...in fact i was praying that somebody pls come and tikam aku... kasik aku koma for as long as it needs for Sofeya's recovery. Pasal aku hanya insan yang lemah and aku tak sanggup tengok anak aku meronta menangis kesakitan mcm tu.

Tapi aku kuatkan jugak semangat. Pasal i know she needs me the most at that time. The nurse ada suruh aku dgn Mr Photographer duduk tunggu dlm bilik. How can i do that? how can i leave my baby alone with the 3 strangers trying to pin her down the bed and poking her hand?

So aku tabahkan jer la hati, peluk dia, trying to calm her down. Obviously tak berjaya buat dia berenti nangis, sakit kan? But i hope by just being there helped her went thru the torturing procedure.

Habis satu chapter.

3 days in hospital. Nurse kuar masuk. Dr kuar masuk. Sumer pakai mask bagai2 mcm nak naik ke bulan. Takutla anak dara aku. Asyik la nangis jer... klu la aku tadah air mata dia.. mmg tak kurang sebesen la aku rasa.. seriously.

Tu belum air mata aku lagi. Dgn kesian kat Sofeya, dgn rindu kat Balqis..

Kan dah nak nangis lagi..... :(

So yesterday dah discharged. Lepas kuar, we expect Sofeya to be happy. Dpt jumpa kak qis, cousin2 and others. Memula jer happy, pas tu dok melalak and nangis all the way. ALL THE TIME ok. the only time dia berenti nangis is when she is asleep.

And mind you, she is asleep like 75% of the time. Mcm time baby dulu.. asyik tidoooooo jer.

Aku pelik, and heran. Pasal tak pernah budak ni jadi mcm ni. Asyik nak dukung 24/7. Bila nak letak jer, dia menjerit mcm kesakitan. Aku mcm tak leh compute, dlm hati terasa mcm dia ni sakit kaki ke? tapi apsal plak tetiba sakit kaki? Nak kata jatuh, tak pulak aku nampak dia jatuh. Tapi hati and instinct aku mcm rasa tak sedap. Something is wrong somewhere.

Sedih sgt aku tgk dia time ni. Sebab i know she is in pain, but she dunno how to tell. Sedih. Tak tahu nak describe mcm mana. I told Mr Photographer, that i would go thru the labor pain again daripada tgk Sofeya sakit mcm ni. Aku sanggup. If it is possible, I would. Biar aku jer yg tanggung sakit. 10 kali labor pain aku sanggup. Tapi let my kids be happy and healthy and pain free.

Boleh ke buat mcm tu?

sigh.... depress nyer aku.

So Thursday i went to office dgn hati yg sgt berat mcm batu. Call 9.30 am, maid cakap sofeya tgh nangis. Call 10.30, tgh tido. Call 11.30, tido lagi. Kol 12 aku balik umah. Maid cakap she noticed sofeya klu pegang kaki, dia jerit sakit. Bila she tried to berdiri, dia mcm angkat kaki kanan tak mau cecah lantai, and cried.

See??? told ya something is wrong!!

I asked maid if dia ada jatuh, maid said no.

Pelik...pelik.... ntah la.. mebbe dia terpeleot somewhere.. knowing perangai active dia. or maybe masa dia meronta nak kena cucuk, terpeleot ke.. dunno lah..

so we brought he to our feveret dr khairul. He said worst case, maybe infection masa cucuk tuh. Arthritis, or something. Klu confirm, kena treat dgn antibiotics, which means kena admitted lagik! And since esok (Friday) we have follow up appt dgn Dr Iean kat spital, Dr Khairul advise us jumpa and mention to Dr Iean abt this.

Please.. aku dah tak sanggup masuk spital lagik.

So today (Friday) pagi2 we went for follow up. Batuk, demam, cirit dah improve. Alhamdulillah. Oh btw i forgot to mention, Sofeya dah byk improve since petang semlm. Dia dah nak main, gelak2, makan sket and tak byk tido dah.

Alhamdulillah syukur!

So Dr Iean checked the leg, he said ni most probably x de apa2. Maybe dia terjatuh sket, sangkut kat katil ke, terseliuh ke. But if esok (Saturday) still kenot stand, we hv to bring her back for ultrasound.

Aku bukannya apa, bila dgr kaki sakit kenot stand, sakit bila pegang, aku TRAUMA. Pasal if you read my first post in this blog, balqis pernah patah kaki. So aku phobia... aku takut... in fact bila maid mention kaki sofeya sakit, aku terus tingat kes balqis.

Now dia dah byk improve. In fact semlm dah start merangkak, cuma bila nak berdiri, dia masih sakit. She can laugh, she pukul kak qis oredi and laugh bila kak qis sakit (and kak qis pun mengoffer lah muka utk dipukul asalkan adiknyer happy.. hehe), she can marah mama bila tak kasik brg yg dia nak, and she can sepah2 baju dlm bakul or watever benda depan mata dia..

oh yeahh.. my baby is back! i have never been so happy tgk anak aku sepah brg!

Bliss!!! sepah lah nak oiiii...

So korang, please pray that she will heal from the leg pain she is having now, so she can stand and walk and run soon!

Selamat berpuasa!

9 comments:

linda said...

Konot, kesian cik Sofeya...will pray for her speedy recovery...

liadevega said...

mmg sedih bila anak sakit...i think sofeya nangis tu, part of it is traumatised. macam masa ayesha kena operate dulu, sampai skrg dia trauma tgk hospital tu, w'pun dah 3 tahun berlalu.

NORLIDA MOHD NOR A.K.A IDA said...

Dun worry....We will pray for her speedy recovery! Doa banyak2 bulan posa nie moga2 Allah makbulkan, kay....

NORLIDA MOHD NOR A.K.A IDA said...

Dun worry....We will pray for her speedy recovery! Doa banyak2 bulan posa nie moga2 Allah makbulkan, kay....

Konot said...

linda, lia and dot - thks for the wishes... dia dah byk improve alhamdulillah except the cirit which is caused by antibiotics she is still taking. hopefully recover soon lah. As for her leg, dah boleh berdiri, cecah lantai, but sometimes dia mcm still trauma (or maybe still sakit) and she will naikkan kaki tak mau cecah lantai. see how, klu lama sgt still tak de improvement, kena bwk check jugak ler...
thks ye korang..

Cik Puan Kamil said...

Susahnya hati aku Konot... Please take care kay ? And I am happy that dia dah sihat...

Dulu I trauma jugak dgn Umar sebab dia lelah... Kena balut, kena suction, depa dok tepuk2 belakang dia rasa mcm patah je anak aku karang... Sekarang dah tembam membam... ha ha... She will be okay...

Konot said...

myra - ye la.. budak2 ni selagi belum besar, belum pandai cakap.. mmg dok susah hati lah kita.. time mcm ni.. mmg aku trauma tak sanggup nak branak dah.. tapi dia dia sihat, cheeky, tgh tidoq comey2.. rasa mcm nak branak byk2 pulak.. hahhahah

Cik Puan Kamil said...

Beranak lah... aku suka !! Ha ha

Konot said...

hang branak dulu la.. aku nyusul kemudian hari heheh

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